Springforth!

It is a beautiful, crisp, sunny, Spring Saturday afternoon. You are all snoozing peacefully on the couch. This morning we went for a scoot on your peddle vehicles and drew wonderful chalk creations on the driveway. Grandma is visiting and we have been having a lovely time. You are both quite smitten with Granny Annie and have been taking turns sleeping with her. You have been growing and excelling in so many ways, it is really actually quite astonishing. Mommy is so proud of her two wee munchkins.

Phoenix Rising...

Oh my! My little nuggets are now little people! Your personalities fascinate me completely.

Nikki you are a kind and gentle soul and you also have a strong will (which you require with a feisty sis like Ruby:)) You started talking a couple of months ago and are now making up for lost time. When you wake up in the morning and say, "Hello Mommy!" it makes my heart sing.

Ruby, Daddy often says you are exactly like me. But, I see something extra special... You have a fearlessness and confidence, which I sorely lacked. I intend on nurturing these wondeful qualities which will serve you well as an adult.

Daddy is away in Newfoundland this week and it is just us 3 musketeers. We will probably head out for an adventure after you both nap. We spend most of our days, learning, crafting, singing, dancing and LAUGHING! The two of you are true entertainers and I savour every second of your antics.

God is good and I always want you two to remember that. He is gracious and loving and has given us the very best life together.

As you both sleep peacefully on the couch within arms reach, I find myself a little weepy. My life is brimming with happiness and in spite of all my blessings I still get the blues.
Life isn't always as manageable as we'd like. It can be downright dreary on occasion. Situations beyond our control reroute our happy little course. I find that these lessons teach us to accept change and regroup.
When Momma was growing up her homelife was highly disfunctional. When I was a little girl I tried very hard to see the brighter side of some pretty bleak scenarios. It was difficult because I was often scared and hurt. I have dealt with many of the horrible things that have happened to me. Although, I find when things beyond my control occur, which they inevitably do, those bad times pop into my head.
I think about that little girl. I think about her freckled face and her kind heart. I think about her love of books and animals. I remember how she was so full of potential and promise and how situations beyond her control broke her spirit and made her self conscious and timid.
There are days I cry for her. I am crying for her right now and it's good because I don't allow myself to cry often.
I look to your future my darlings. I am so determined to give you a life full of stability and love. I want you to have the life that I never had.
One day when you are older I will tell you some stories about my past and I will hold you both tight and smile. I will smile because even though I climped a steep rockface to get to you, I did so on my own. You are both my most important accomplishments. My most beloved little friends.
I thank the Lord for the gift he gave me as I look upon your sleeping faces. If I were to die today I would die satisfied that I have brought two amazing little people into this world. I hope you will love the Lord as I do. I pray that I can teach by example. Please help me Lord.

75 Days Until Tulip Time!

The countdown is on my Chickadees! All this holiday jazz is behind us and Momma is looking forward to embracing milder temperatures.
I haven`t made any recent entries because we just weathered a raging storm. My two little monkeys were very sick last month. You both endured tonsillitis. I felt so sorry for both of you! Fevers came and went over the course of four days and reached very high temperatures. We trekked to the doctor`s office twice in one week. I was so worried and we were all beyond exhausted.
Momma knows what tonsillitis feels like. I was afflicted with the dreaded sickness, on more than one occasion.
Nikki, you couldn`t even eat because your throat was so raw and inflammed. Momma had to use a syringe and feed you this protein-type concoction, which I developed to keep some meat on your bones.
Ruby, you were suprisingly able to drink your bottles. This provided me with great relief because you are a very picky eater and you can`t afford to lose any weight, my little Thumbellina.
I fed you both puddings and ice cream, which is something very special in itself. Momma doesn`t like her babies to have any sweets:)
It goes without saying that I am very happy that you are both back to being your happy and healthy selves. We stayed away from the Skorija kids during the holidays, but we still had a wonderful time together with Uncle Andrew, Auntie Meena, baby Maya and the rest of the brave Varga children.
I will now begin to write more consistently and we begin the countdown to tulip time! As always I love you both completely.

Let it Snow!

Truth be told, Momma is not the most patient person. You are both so small and innocent yet, you have taught me many life lessons. I believe one of the most vitally important of these lessons is patience.

Admittedly, I am a little lacking in that department today. The reason for my impatience is really quite silly. You see, I am waiting for a snowfall. I have your tiny snowsuits laundered and at the ready. Your baby sleds are shiny and new, almost anticipating their first mission. We have the cold weather and now all we require is some of that white fluffy stuff!

It is funny to note, before my little twins arrived, I was of a completely different mindset. I dreaded the winter and all it entailed, with a passion of a thousand burning fires. Alright, maybe that is a tad dramatic, but I really didn't dig the season - at all.

Now, I can't wait to build a snowman, pull you around in your sleds and watch you experience everything for the very first time. There is something really special about being by your sides for all your "firsts." I feel so special and blessed. It is a real gift and I am so glad that God gave me the opportunity to share them with my Meatball and Peanut.

So, whenever you're ready Lord, let it snow! I will be poised with my camera at the ready.

Santa Claus is comin' to town. Sorry Nikki!

We are in the midst of Christmas preparations. Last night Daddy and I took you both to the mall so that we could have your picture taken with Santa Claus. You both looked beyond adorable! Ruby, you wore an outfit that Uncle Andrew and Auntie Meena gave to you last Christmas - finally it fits my little Thumbellina!

Suprisingly it was little Nikki that was spooked by our bearded friend. We had the picture taken in spite of your dislike for old St. Nick. We thought that one day you could look back on the picture and have a chuckle.

Ruby, your face was priceless! Everyone was cooing and fawning over you and you kept your typically stoic expression, often reserved for strangers, or in this case some of Santa's elves.

We also made a quest for the perfect tree last weekend. The journey ended at Ikea. It is a beauty. I haven't decorated it because I fear the ornaments might prove dangerous to my little cupcakes. It smells absolutely divine and I am so glad that we have one this year. I will make some popcorn rings this weekend.

Well, Daddy is home an I must prepare some dinner. Thanks for the great day kids:)

Pontificating

Well, the day started out cold, dreary and dismal. I was one coffee shy of a splitting headache all morning. The sun has timidly made an appearance from behind the clouds and I am immediately feeling more Care Bearish.
Ruby you are playing in the laundry basket, which has proven to be one of your most favourite activities. Nikki, you are methodically picking up pieces of pita bread smothered in cream cheese and having a munch. Luigi is dancing around you, anticipating the inevitable tidbit that will come his way.
We have had an enjoyable morning. One of Momma's oldest friends "Auntie" Brandi, came by for a visit. She is a very courageous woman, full of spunk and enthusiasm. Auntie Brandi has just journeyed through a long battle with cancer and after numerous surgeries and treatments, she is still the same funloving girl I knew all those years ago in British Columbia. Just her presence is a reality check. Momma loves her and so do you Ruby. You would not leave her side!
I can remember when I was young, adults would harp on about how time flies. I shrugged it off as another boring theory. I could not fathom the truth in their words. As of late, I see this theory as a fact. The older I get, the more accelerated my life becomes. When I was in school I was always trying to hurry through a week in order to get to the weekend. Time would seem to stand still. Now, that I am older and try to relish every moment with the two of you, time slips through my fingers, like sand through the hourglass. These are the days of our lives... Seriously, just last year, you were tiny babies and now you are both precocious toddlers vying for my attention.
Ug, now I sound old. Sorry kidlets, no more melancholy. The next thing I'll be saying will be, "But I digress..."